Chemo Treatment Number 5

The four worse words in the English language are "despite our best efforts." You hear these words all the time on TV, and I have been preparing for these words since Kitty's diagnoses..........you can't prepare! No matter how you try, you can't prepare! It wasn't all bad news, but the doctor did use those words today. It is mainly because Kitty isn't eating like we would all like. She did gain back .2 pounds but I have to keep her on the appetite stimulator and it's still a struggle to get her to eat. The doctor said that it could be and here come those words, that despite our best efforts the Cancer is smarter than we are. I had a complete breakdown because despite my efforts I wasn't ready to hear this. They checked her blood and.....here comes the good news! Here blood counts almost doubled. The Cancer may be smart, but my baby is tough and she is giving it everything she has! They went ahead and started the protocol they have been striving for. They gave her the big guns today! They had to give her an anti-nauseous drug because it make her pretty sick, which sucks when she is already struggling with eating, but hopefully this work! I have to give her yet another pill, twice a day, but...........she's alive and she is not in pain. It's all I can ask for!