Chemo Treatment Number 5

The four worse words in the English language are "despite our best efforts." You hear these words all the time on TV, and I have been preparing for these words since Kitty's diagnoses..........you can't prepare! No matter how you try, you can't prepare! It wasn't all bad news, but the doctor did use those words today. It is mainly because Kitty isn't eating like we would all like. She did gain back .2 pounds but I have to keep her on the appetite stimulator and it's still a struggle to get her to eat. The doctor said that it could be and here come those words, that despite our best efforts the Cancer is smarter than we are. I had a complete breakdown because despite my efforts I wasn't ready to hear this. They checked her blood and.....here comes the good news! Here blood counts almost doubled. The Cancer may be smart, but my baby is tough and she is giving it everything she has! They went ahead and started the protocol they have been striving for. They gave her the big guns today! They had to give her an anti-nauseous drug because it make her pretty sick, which sucks when she is already struggling with eating, but hopefully this work! I have to give her yet another pill, twice a day, but...........she's alive and she is not in pain. It's all I can ask for!

Chemo Treatment Number 4

Well, we had another set back today. Kitty lost another .8 lb. I stopped giving her the appetite stimulator because I thought she was eating okay but I guess not good enough. Her blood count is still a little low and they found another small mass which means she is not in total remission, which they were hoping to reach by now. They tried a new drug today that is administered into the muscle called Elspar. Hopefully that will kick this stupid caner into remission. I was really feeling defeated when they took her back to do the ultrasound and confirm they had felt another mass. I saw a poem they have on the wall and it says:

Cancer is so limited...

It cannot cripple love.

It cannot shatter hope.

It cannot corrode faith.

It cannot eat away peace.

It cannot destroy confidence.

It cannot kill friendship.

It cannot shut out memories.

It cannot silence courage.

It cannot invade the soul.

It cannot reduce eternal life.

It cannot quench the Spirit.

This rang really true for me. No matter what happens, My love for Kitty will live on. I will continue hoping until she is gone, I will have faith in her healers that they are doing their best work, I will carry the peace of knowing I am giving her the chance to live, I will remain confident that I am doing the right thing, Kitty will still be my companion and I will still have the friends who have supported me through this, I will ALWAYS have my memories of my baby, Kitty will fight with courage, Kitty will still have her beautiful soul, When she leaves, her life will become spiritual and eternal, her Spirit will always be with me.


Send positive thoughts and prayers if you pray to my baby please! She needs all the help she can get right now!

Chemo Treatment Number 3

So, Kitty had her 3rd treatment and check up today. She has gained half a pound back! The doctor and I are both VERY happy about that! Since her white blood cell count was down last week the doctor decided to only give her one medication instead of two because sometimes the Vinicristine can lower the white blood cell count. Her white cell count was still down today so they will only give her the one medicine again next week and see how she responds to that. I am so happy she is doing better! I don't want to get my hopes too up, but we are on the hill going back up! Let's hope that she continues climbing!

Doing a little better!

I just thought I would give a quick update before I start on my homework. The doctor told me to give Kitty the appetite stimulator that they gave her after surgery. I gave it to her Wednesday night and she has been eating much better! She still isn't as spunky as she usually is, but her eyes look better and she is starting to do some of her normal silly stuff like, cramming herself into the box of bottled water with the bottles of water in it, yelling at us if the door she wants opened is closed, and things like that. I don't want to get to excited yet, but I am really, really happy she is eating. Keep your fingers crossed that when I take her to get her chemo Monday that she has gained weight and the white blood cell count is up! Thats all for now, I will update after chemo Monday!

Well, Kitty still isn't eating much. I made her some orange roughy fish and she wouldn't eat it either. She has had little bits of wet food here and there. She just vomited a little. I'm just beside myself! Looks like another night of worrying and no sleep. My poor baby, she is being so lovey and I just can't make her better. This sucks! I hate cancer!

2nd chemo treatment

So, Kitty had her 2nd round of Chemo today. Aunt Brenda took her because I had client visits at work. She lost another half pound and the doctor is a worried about that. She really hasn't been eating like she use to, and the doctor said to try whatever it takes so I went and bought her two different dry foods and different wet food for her to try. If she loses more weight we will probably have to change her treatment plan which I don't want because she is getting the best treatment right now. Her white blood cell count is lower than they would like it to be but the doctor said she isn't worried about that yet. I however am very worried because if we have to change her treatment and her cell count is already low, what will that mean for her long term outlook? I have to admit I am feeling pretty defeated today and it is really hard to keep the tears back. This is a total roller coaster! One day, the outlook is pretty good, and I am feeling good about the outlook and then in one day, I hit bottom and am in fear that I will lose my baby any day! She seems really lethargic and down tonight but it could be the stress of going to the vet and getting chemo again. She really hates going and get's very worked up. I am definitely taking her to the next appt. because I want to talk to the doctor. I hope next week goes better, I am going to be a nervous wreck until Monday now. Keep Kitty in your thoughts please, my baby needs all the good energy she can get!

How is reintroduction going?

Well, it wasn't horrible........as long as I kept myself between Kitty and Jazzmine. If Kitty got anywhere near her she started hissing like a maniac. Nothing will wake you up quicker than a cat standing over you hissing, especially as loud as my little old lady Jazzmine. Kitty finally ended up sleeping on one of her scratching posts. We will see what happens tonight. Not sure where Jazzy will want to sleep. I sure hope she stops this nonsense soon! Well, off to cram a pill down poor kitty's throat and to see where everyone wants to end up for the night! Until the next post................